Find your words

You sat on the couch beside me, you held my hand and you said that I looked sad. I turned  my head away from you thinking if I don't look into your eyes you wont probably see more. I said I'm fine, and that you don't need to worry. I think I convinced you because you went back to watching your show.

We love each other, and love should  let you know when the one you love is hurting, shouldn't you feel a heavy heart when they are sad, even if you can't see it with your eyes.

Words are stupid , language is stupid. I can't put in words what I feel, some days like today, when you ask me, I can't answer you, I'm not sure how to say it in a way that really reaches you. So why can't the love we carry for each other take care of that.

I want to look in your eyes, and let you know everything. How lonely I'm, and how scared I feel sometimes. I want you to feel it like my heart does. You say I talk so much and it's adorable, but I only scratch the surface, the things I really want to tell you, are often locked down somewhere else.

Well, I have come to realize that love can't do the talking for you, you have to do it. Find your words. As simple as they may seem compared to what you feel, they will be a lot better that your silence. I have learned that nobody can read your mind, even the people who love you with all their heart, they can't read your mind, they can't know what you think, you have to tell them. find your words.

I took his hand, I put it on my cheek,  I looked at him and I said " Yes, you are right, I'm not okay"  He hugged me and said" let's talk about"

I did my best, I tried to explain, and it felt good. My heart was lighter that day.